Psalms that keep me going...

I dunno if this is hereditary or just another sad impact of modern day stress but, for the past two years, I've been trying to win my battle with hyperventilation syndrome. I've been to five different doctors already and the only thing they've said is that the syndrome is something that only "resides in the mind." One cardiologist even kidded that he's not saying that I'm crazy but, usually, it is fear that would trigger hyperventilation.

Because of this, I began reading inspirational books that would inspire me to be more positive and conquer my fear of being alone. I guess my list of favorite books in my profile would say otherwise. I guess I would have to edit my list after this entry because, for some reasons, I forgot to include my favorite book of all time: the Bible.

For those who are waging the same battle that I have, allow me to share with you two chapters in the Bible which never fail to remind me to have more faith in God and myself. These two chapters are like my "shock absorbers" whenever I'm down because of insecurity and, again, because of fear. I hope and pray that, in due time, this "jail" created by fear in us will be finally demolished by God so we could enjoy life more and be able to serve God by using the gifts He had given us. God bless us all...

Psalms 121: 1-8

The Lord Our Protector

I look to the mountains;

where will my help come from?

My help will come from the Lord,

who made heaven and earth.

He will not you fall;

your protector is always awake.

The protector of Israel

never doses or sleeps.

The Lord will guard you;

he is by your side to protect you.

The sun will not hurt you during the day,

nor the moon during the night.

The Lord will protect you from all danger;

he will keep you safe.

He will protect you as you come and go

now and forever.

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Psalms 139: 1-24

God's Complete Knowledge and Care

Lord, you have examined me and you know me.

You know everything I do;

from far away you understand

all my thoughts.

You see me, whether I am working or resting;

you know all my actions.

Even before I speak,

you already know what I will say.

You are all around me on every side;

you protect me with your power.

Your knowledge of me is too deep;

It is beyond my understanding.

Where could I go to escape from you?

Where could I get away from your presence?

I went up to heaven, you would be there;

if I lay down in the world of the dead,

you would be there.

If I flew away beyond the east

or lived in the farthest place in the west,

you would be there to lead me,

you would be there to help me.

I could ask the darkness to hide me

or the light around me to turn into night,

but even darkness is not dark for you,

and the night is as bright as the day.

Darkness and light are the same to you.

You created every part of me;

you put me together in my mother's womb.

I praise you because you are to be feared;

all you do is strange and wonderful.

I know it with all my heart.

When my bones were being formed,

carefully put together in my mother's womb,

when I was growing there in secret,

you knew that I was there -

you saw me before I was born.

The days allotted to me

had all been recorded in your book,

before any of them ever began.

O God, how difficult I find your thoughts;

how many of them, they would be

more than the grains of sand.

When I awake, I am still with you.

O God, how I wish you would kill the wicked!

How I wish violent people would

leave me alone!

They say wicked things about you;

they speak evil things against your name.

O Lord, how I hate those who hate you!

How I dispise those who rebel against you!

I hate them with a total hatred;

I regard them as my enemies.

Examine me, O God, and know my mind;

test me, and discover my thoughts.

FInd out if there is any evil in me

and guide me in the everlasting way.